Insecurities

Hey there! Sorry I haven't had much time to write lately...been trying to keep up with everything going on in my life at the moment. To say the least, my head is spinning. However, I am thankful that God is still continually holding me up. I love the way a friend of mine, Melissa, who is so much like the big sis I've never had to me, put it. She said, "it just seems God is really putting you through some fire right now to make you a purer gold." Her words of wisdom really gave me some comfort and perspective through all this. I pray that God will use this in my life for my betterment and good, and that I will be able to see that. While my heart rages through all the insecurities and it pains me to think about it, I pray that I may have the peace of Christ restored to me. Nothing in life seems certain right now..not that it ever was because nothing in life is for certain...but it seemed to be as if I was on more "solid ground" than I am now. Hopefully that analogy makes sense! They say it takes hardships to make us who we are, make us strong, to make us everyday heroes who rise above- well...I certainly hope they were right.

Silver linings

So from others perspectives, things may be getting worse...my mom might have picked up another infection according to her doctor, her best friend died and my mom is too sick to attend her funeral tomorrow, and I'm ubberly behind in homework. But! My point of view is that I don't know if anything else could go wrong...and I hope nothing else does but for all intensive purposes...I'm choosing to believe that the worst is behind me and that things will get better from here. I pray to God they will each day... I know he's got a plan for me I just have to see. However at times esp. Now in my life it is sooo hard to. Things are falling apart left and right...whenever one thing goes right, another goes horribly wrong...but I guess that's just the way the world works now a days. I have PLENTY that I am blessed with- I have nice cars to drive in, a beautiful house to live in, plenty of food, and lots of family and friends to support and love me. I am able to worship God freely, go to an absolutely magnificent church, and I still have my freedom, which most people in struggling 3rd world countries don't have...I have all this to be thankful for and more , to be absolutely praise-filled because! So instead of focusing on my problems, I will make it my goal to have a "gratitude  attitude". :)